This was a chat conversation I had with a friend yesterday. I thought I would post it, because it was fresh in my mind at the time and it tells the story well.
(2:44:31 PM) jdekruyter@edit/edit: It’s a long story. A long time ago, God started working on me about FS and my love for it. It has been my life for the past ten years, and I haven’t let anything get in the way of it. It controls my thoughts and I have spent way to much time and money on it. I have wanted to grow spritually, but I can’t. FS was in the way. It seemed like every time someone would preach about putting God first, I would hear Him telling me to get rid of my computer. I heard it said that “anything that takes the place of God is an idol”. FS is my idol. I loved it. It took first place in a lot of areas. So, rather than give it up, I tried to justify it by doing dev stuff and claiming that it would make me money. I tried giving up beta testing and flying less to satisfy my consience, but I couldn’t give it up.
Well last night I did. I prayed about it for a long time and after making a ton of excuses and whys and wherefores, I asked the Lord what he wanted. He led me to Mark 9:43-50. I asked what he wanted me to do with the computer, because I knew if I kept it, it would tempt me. He told me to give it to the church. They need new computers, and it would make a good file server. So, that’s the story. I’m right with God, and I would rather have that than FS.
I will bring in a hard drive tomorrow with all of my FS stuff, and copies of all my project work. I’m sure you can find a helping hand on FSDev or maybe finish it yourself. I’m thankful for your friendship, and I hope you understand. 🙂
43And if thy hand offend thee, cut it off: it is better for thee to enter into life maimed, than having two hands to go into hell, into the fire that never shall be quenched:
44Where their worm dieth not, and the fire is not quenched.
45And if thy foot offend thee, cut it off: it is better for thee to enter halt into life, than having two feet to be cast into hell, into the fire that never shall be quenched:
46Where their worm dieth not, and the fire is not quenched.
47And if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out: it is better for thee to enter into the kingdom of God with one eye, than having two eyes to be cast into hell fire:
48Where their worm dieth not, and the fire is not quenched.
49For every one shall be salted with fire, and every sacrifice shall be salted with salt.
50Salt is good: but if the salt have lost his saltness, wherewith will ye season it? Have salt in yourselves, and have peace one with another.
I feel like I shot a friend in the back, but I have freed myself to know a friend that “sticketh closer than a brother.”
2 Corinthians 5:17 “Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”
Psalm 37:4 Delight thyself also in the LORD: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.